Here I am sharing the journal entry from the hair fetish and fantasy point of view and it is only about that. I just want to share how it has been generally and if there were anything that stood out in particular. Don't expect anything major but some just simple moms (all hair related only) and it is only for the last 25 days of this month and this would be the only time I am posting a journal based on my fetish.
May 5:
I am back
after the break and I am trying to not get distracted and focus on work a bit
before slightly slipping into distraction. I know a peek could lead to a leak
and I almost faced that and almost succumbed to it. Maybe, I should have a
plan. A solid plan as to when I can and when I shouldn’t do it. I am pushing it
for next week but I am distracted and tempted and I really can’t help it. The
temptation of using AI just to fulfil a fantasy which will never happen for
real and you can’t wait to test an image generated based on someone you knew
and whose hair you wanted for bad. If not in real, maybe through AI you can cut
off her hair. Control yourself! You need to give it time, but not too much time
where it disrupts your other works.
May 6:
I went out
for a walk in the centre and as always, there are people, moms, hairs you come
across. Nothing in particular that sparked a specific interest though I did see
some nice hair and some pretty moms – but I wasn’t fully focused. If there is
any specific one that captured my interest even for a short period of time, I
will talk about them in a different posts where I will specifically talk about
the hot moms and the hairs I come across that triggered a reaction.
I did see
some brown silky hair, and maybe a long pony tail from the back and maybe a hot
mom’s ass. Still counts but not something in particular I was looking for. Back
home while being distracted and tempted because of something that catches your
attention while scrolling on Instagram, be it an influencer’s hot mom, or a
singer flaunting her hair and ass – all of it appears unexpectedly and triggers
a reaction you can’t help it. You check the comments to see what they talk
about the mother and most of it being compliments and some also lusting on the
mother(s) and desiring them. I enjoy reading those comments because I like it -
whatever the comments say – even if inappropriate. The hardest part is
translating the comments or the posts especially if the posts or the person is
non-English speaking. This hot mom in particular – a beautiful Italian woman –
a milf desired by all – who constantly appears on her influencer son’s posts
(whilst having her own profile) the comments are about her beauty, desiring her
and sometimes crossing the line. Because they are in Italian, it is hard to
find out what they actually mean even while using Google Translate. She is one
hell of a woman. The visuals are more tempting and maybe I should do some
writing on the fantasies or thoughts I have instead of watching something as
that would help to an extent. This should be done in control – the scrolling,
the watching of videos and images, or browsing. Once I peak in, it can go way
out of control. Damn, moms are so hot!
May 7:
I have
slipped. A peak led to a leak. I didn’t go out today and so, while working from
home, I may have also checked out some feeds and something would certainly
trigger me such as Shakira performing where she is mobbed by fans while she
stands close to them performing and when she flips her hair. Or a vlogger
kissing mothers (So hot!) And me checking out some new AI tools for image to
video, some with paid subscriptions, some with minimal credits. I think
throughout the time, the quality is declining in terms of action and it is also
being flagged down even for the mildest thing. I understand it is for safety
reasons but still. And till now, we couldn’t get haircut done through AI. There
is snipping but no hair being chopped and then suddenly they are bald, or have
a pixie. It looks very unnatural too. I am looking for the right AI software
for image to video with reasonable price and should be worth the money. Let’s
see how it goes.
May 8:
A bit of
AI generation before going to work. I also stepped out for a while and because
the weather was good, almost everyone was out. So, I was looking for some
tempting hair or hot moms; whichever comes my way. I didn’t look for it but it
catches my attention, I will look at it till me and they are out of sight. Not
many tempting hairs but I did see some with nice hairs. I did see a couple of
moms and remember checking out one of their asses. One particular mom I
remember seeing before going to work was wearing a black top and blue jeans and
has blonde hair below her shoulders. Seeing her, I wanted to fondle her, stroke
her hair and kiss her. I did also see a couple of other attractive moms, and
since I saw them for a little longer, I will discuss about them in a different
posts.
May 9:
I did see
a couple of tempting hair here and there; be it older and younger but it all
went in a flash so nothing worth mentioning at all. I did see a long haired
woman (or girl) walking past while I was shopping and I couldn’t see her face
because I was talking to someone. I didn’t realise she was right behind and
when she walked out of the shop, I could only see her hair from the back and she
was wearing a short skirt. So, I couldn’t see her face and I don’t know if the
female is older or younger. It is hard to keep up with moms and hairs because I
also have to write about it; but some I let it pass because I hope I would see
them again later at some point.
May 10:
It is hard
when someone with tempting long hair is sitting right in front of you and you
have to look right above it to avoid getting distracted. And you also draw the
line when it comes to the person – in this case, a young girl who is probably in
her pre-teens. I try to draw the attention on her mother, who only had
shoulder-length hair which was fine but the daughter had waist-length hair (too
long for a pre-teen girl) and she was constantly swinging and adjusting it. I
wasn’t easily tempted – I drew the line. Only older. It would have been fine if
the girl had tied her hair.
May 11:
Apart from
seeing a lot some nice hair and some pretty moms, nothing really happened but
still it counts. Writing about it everyday for the month is going to be a task
but I am still going to do it because it is the last time I am doing it and only
for the month. I just want to let you all know the life of a hair fetishist so
far and how it has been.
May 12:
Even from
their backs, I am able to recognise the person and today, I saw a woman walking
on the footpath while I was in the car and I assumed it could be the mother I
saw the other day and it turned out to be her. Quite impressive of me! While I
was at a café, I was sitting diagonal to a family of three; where the father
and the child was already at the table and the mother was about to sit when she
was adjusting her hair and pulling it away. Quite a nice sight to see; though
she wasn’t that appealing at all. I do see a lot of women with long hair but
not all of them are appealing to me. Not all waist length hair is long hair or
tempting enough. And when you see the faces of the long-haired women, sometimes
you might not be satisfied and so you don’t eye on them and let it be.
May 13:
AI tools to
an extent fulfils your fantasy and fetish but then it hits a limit and it isn’t
worth paying that lot. I just watched some reels of hot moms and some haircuts
by chance without looking for it and that took a lot of time. The plan was to
check for a little bit but then it went furthermore till it hit the limit and
asked to upgrade which I am not doing. It can’t be shut down completely but it
has to be controlled.
May 14:
I opened
my fetish account after many months. I won’t say I missed out on a lot because
I have been seeing things here and there. There are still those Rapunzels
flaunting their still beautiful hair and still hoping to cut them all off
someday (which is never) and then I came across new haircut videos and same
videos appear in feeds which I still rewatch because why not. Now, I am looking
for an alternative AI tool for a little while and I don’t want it to hit the
limit because it’s a scam. When I see the previous AI generations, some of them
were quite good but now it is becoming so dumb and I don’t understand why, even
after paying for it and it is getting flagged for no reason. I didn’t go out
today so I didn’t see any hairs or moms and it was mostly in phone.
May 15:
It was
pretty dull so I didn’t involve much even when I came across some nice hairs
and moms – and nothing that could trigger or linger more. Although, I
interacted with a woman who was asking for directions and when she was showing
me something on her phone, her hair (which was tied in a pony) almost hit my
face. It should have hit my face or she should have come more closer. I really
haven’t touched and felt anyone’s hair in a long time. I am not counting the
times I felt it when I hugged women I knew because my intention wasn’t to touch
and feel their hair. And being an adult, you can’t get away with walking past a
woman closely just to feel her hair. Those days were long gone. Even if you
were a teenager today, you still can’t do it because the times have changed.
May 16:
Nothing
memorable apart from seeing few tempting hairs here and there and some moms to
linger and lust. The AI limit is really bugging me because I paid for an offer,
just to be limited? Wow! It should also have an order as to how much more and
less should be made.
May 17:
Everybody’s
out on Sundays and I hoped to see something (or someone) to distract me or make
my day a bit brighter because nothing else was happening. Because the weather
was nice, I saw a couple of women in their sun dresses and long flowing hair.
Something to catch my attention and trigger me for a little bit at least. Glad
to see some boy moms (they are so hot) and women with waist-length hair which
looked good and some attractive moms you can eye on. Apart from that and some
scrolling through fetish stuff, it was a pretty normal day.
May 18:
I was
scrolling through feeds when I came across a profile of someone who hasn’t
posted in a long time. I was shocked to see her look because the last time I
saw her, she had really long red hair. I am talking about an actress and not
someone I know closely. This actress (whom I have seen only in one film) is
seen spotted a pixie cut. Quite a drastic transformation and I wondered why she
could undergo that. I realised that even before I read the caption on that
post. She has been battling cancer for almost a year and that is one reason for
the long absence from social media, and she lost all her hair to chemo. It is
sad on one side, but on the other side, a long-haired beauty losing all her hair.
A part of me would have loved to see the haircut video which I don’t think we
will see or she has even shot one because that must have been devastating for
her.
May 19:
Randomly
scrolling even after knowing that it is a waste of time but when you give time
for hair fetish related stuff, it can go on. As you all know about my things
for moms, I was also looking for the same. I come across reels of creators I
have never even known of and they happen to have really attractive mothers, I read the
comments to see if there is anything about the mom and there are many. Some
nice compliments, some slightly inappropriate ones, all kinds I would say and I
must say, I enjoy reading those comments about the moms, lusting over them. And
if they are not English, I will have to use Translate to see what they meant
and if it was about the mothers (which they were). Don’t the creators see the
comments and don’t do anything about it? Or do they secretly enjoy it? There is
one which I noticed very recently about a young lad (in his late teens to early
twenties) who is annoying his mother while in the kitchen. And how does he do
that? By spanking her ass. You heard that right! Quite inappropriate for a son
to do that to his mother. And most of his posts on his account have been that.
Either fingering her buttline or spanking her ass and there is one where he
used the fucking gesture from behind. What the fuck!
May 20:
I leaned
more into hair fetish scrolling and seeing a lot of chops and makeover gets me
hard because I had developed this fetish since I was a teenager and till now, I
never got to cut someone’s hair – a woman’s hair I want to cut. I see tempting
long hairs of women here and there and there is nothing you can do about it
other than watching them. And the younger women have got longer hair and you
are not going to go after them.
May 21:
I really
may have had enough of watching this because I really want some action. I tried
to learn haircutting and I enquired at places where they can teach and either
they are too expensive and lot of time to commit too. Also, I want to make sure
that no one knows. No one in my family, I meant. They would wonder why I am
interested in haircutting; especially cutting woman’s hair. They might figure
out the fetish. I am looking for ways to learn this at a time when none of
these obstacles matter: such as time, money and others knowing.
May 22:
Everyone
was out because it was a lovely weather. And I had the privilege of seeing a
lot of pretty women, pretty moms in sundresses, shorts and top, with their
flowing hair, be it long or short. Some has got mommy hair because they are
moms and that is even hotter. I wanted to pull some by the hair all the way
down and kiss them. It was nice to see a lot of them. Hopefully, I will see
more in the coming days.
May 23:
I finally
found that the woman whose face I couldn’t see but only her long hair almost
touching her hips. She is quite young and so it wasn’t an older one as I
thought. Not every older women have got longer hair and when they do, it looks
good on them and maybe that is one reason, I am attracted to them otherwise. I
did see a couple of women with their partners and kids walking around and I
couldn’t help notice their long hair and of various styles and hoping if they
would come closer so I can have a good look at it. But I have to keep them to
myself; the reactions because even if they aren’t watching me watching them,
someone else are. You never know who’s watching you. So, every checking out
have to be carefully done before they label you, and sometimes you react a bit
louder in a way people can notice. Got to be careful in that aspect.
May 24:
Again
nothing much happened today that is fetish related or fantasy related. Just the
usual and occasionally, some hot moms or long-haired women and they could be
with their partners or kids but it doesn’t matter, because I want the mother, I
want the girlfriend or wife either in chair, or somewhere else. Mostly chair. I
love it when they stroke their hair, touch their asses, which is normal for
them but too hot for me because – I am a dirty man.
May 25:
It was too
hot to step outside and so I stayed at home and was watching some hair related
content, and some hot moms and it is surprising to see many fit moms and even
if you don’t follow, seeing some of the contents popping in the feeds is good.
Then you see a long-haired women posing happily with their family and you look
at her hairs and tell yourself what you are going to do with the woman and her
beautiful hair. All will be gone. This is all in my head; none of it will ever
happen in real life. Now AI can generate image to video and we can do things
which we wish to do such as cutting rapunzels hair, kissing your favourite
celebrity, and all that. I hope there would be a time where we can actually
experience an AI version of reality and touch and feel in that immersive world
based on what we want. It doesn’t have to be real but it can feel real – such
as being a barber in the Middle Earth and cutting off all those women
characters’ hair. Will be quite fun.
May 26:
The
hottest day so far and nothing exciting happened in terms of fetish or fantasy.
Too hot to step outside so you have seen some moms and not many tempting hairs
which may have all been tied up and clipped because of the heatwave. Then you
go through feeds, coming across some random hair videos or rapunzels or haircut
in game shows and because it is not in English, you have a hard time to
understand. Same with the Rapunzels, most of them aren’t English speaking but
still their hair is the only thing that needs to talk to us, fetishers. Who
cares if they are married. I still want them.
May 27:
I was
staying at home and coming across all the fetish related stuff and browsing
them and getting turned on by stuff. Because I was home, I can’t think of
anything exciting or something that stood out because it was mostly me,
browsing and posting I like and also deciding what to take down because after a
certain point, you will you had enough because you want some action. You want
to cut women’s hair, you want to bag hot moms, you want to do things. It’s not
easy and it’s so frustrating because it’s been so long.
May 28:
Airports,
train stations, malls, centres are the places where you see a lot of people;
and a lot of options to explore; particularly in terms of hair and moms. I went
to the mall today and I came across many of them. I didn’t linger but
everything was just glances and looking till they were out of sight. Even from
a distance, I could see some pretty hairs, hot bodies, butts and so on. Because
it was hot, everyone was wearing comfortable clothing such as shorts and tank
tops. I am only talking about the women in particular. A women with long hair
caught my attention for a while because of her hair which was only waist-length
and when I saw her with her husband, it angered me because it turned out to be
a guy I hated. The most annoying thing is watching the woman you are attracted
to or find attractive with a man you hate. This was only a one-time thing. I
haven’t seen them that long or that many times.
May 29:
The last entry
of all and I hope to make it the best. The weather was nice this time and so we
saw many people. I did see many pretty moms in flowing dresses and longer hairs
but there was no time to linger because you had work. There wasn’t many
lingering moments like the previous day and there are quite many videos and
hair-related posts on Instagram such as women on chairs and women being barbers
but the women stylists have got really beautiful long hair which I want to chop
off. I want them to use the clippers and scissors on them. Oh dear, when will I
ever get a chance?
So here's the journal for the last 25 days. I am pretty sure there will be more such lingering experiences but I don't think I am going to write them all again. This is the first and the last time you see a fetish journal like this on the page. Hopefully, I will have something more interesting to share that is fetish-related. Until then... keep enjoying your hair fetish.
